.jpg) .jpg) The following is a small sample of the poetry I have written over my life time. Some are loving, a lot reflect my feelings about God, some are angry, and others just are! I hope you enjoy. A Most Special small collection of 8 poems I wrote after I had been "filled with the Holy Spirit." |
This is my personal favorite of everything God has allowed me to write
The one who changes everything
The Following was written
after a very special and deep religious experience!
Other Things I wrote
Feast of the Immaculate Conception –1984
FEAST OF THE IMMACULATE CONCEPTION – 1985
The Church –1976 Understanding
The Church and Me
I’d give anything if my Church wanted me back
I’d even forgive and be happy to be back
Still it will never happen
The Church doesn’t know I am not there
What is even worse,
If the Church did know,
It would not care for more than15 seconds
If that long.
The Church has to take care of so very much
That it has forgotten that it exists for me
That is was founded for me, and for you,
The Church is so very worried about surviving
That it has forgotten its mission
Why in the world would I want to go back
What answer is there other than
It was where I belonged.
I don’t belong there anymore
I don’t know where I belong and I feel lost
I always belonged there in the past
In reality the Church never knew I was there
That was the way the Church liked it
I was there doing all I could
And I could not get enough of doing
The question is why
I felt I belonged and I felt I was contributing
I am not sure why I felt this way
It was the place I turned to in need
Even when the need wasn’t filled
If you have no other place to go
Then the Church becomes a place to go
A place to be safe you would think
A place where you will not be abused
I went to the Church and I was abused
I grew up being abused by much in my life
I went to the Church to be safe
To be close to a loving God
And I was abused both as a child
Then even more as a worker in the Church
That was even worse and became my torture.
I gave my life to my Church
And it did not know I was there.
Still I have finally come to accept
The Church never knew I was there
As the Church would say,
The pain is mine, not the Church’s
Still I miss being a part of the Church
I miss being a staff member
I miss the joy I felt in loving God
Through the Church.
I miss the importance of what I thought I did
I have found that my love of God has increased
It has not decreased or diminished in any way
Perhaps, I even pray more intensely
Ah, now the Church can say
Look, see what the Church has done in my life
But then the Church would have to admit
It knew I was there and that the Church could never do!
I don’t know if there is a Church for me anymore
I so want to hope so
Yet, if there is not, I know I will be ok
For day by day I am finding my way
Each time I get mired down in the past
God gives me something to lift me up
You see, God knows I am here
God has always known I was here
Loving God allows me to love God’s People
I am conscious of trying to do this more and more
I try to love everyone I come into contact with
You can not love God and not love God’s People
I have re-discovered Eucharist in God’s People
Christ really is inside me and you
O that I only let you find Christ within me
O that you only find Christ within you!