11/14/2017

Early Teen Years

You begin once more going from a foreign place to a new site

Not much difference except for a few moments of joy seeing what was there

Baseball becomes your passionate escape, books, radio and playing

Only now your temper begins to show more and more

The rage that has been building begins to often overflow

You find a way out looking for God and find more darkness

Your manhood begins its long journey

Girls enter your life for the first time but not the last

You only know how you have seen them treated and yet you are more

High School begins with six schools in one year

You do not know it but you are seen as poor, uncultured and not wanted

This was in part because you left where you knew and were known

and went where you were not

A journey into darkness where you forced hours, days to pass by

You met a friend who wanted to be more but friendship was so valuable to you

There was no chance you could offer more

You made a friend where you lived who eventually chose not to be

Rage, Rage, more than that you were in constant upheaval

Finding light was almost impossible and yet you tried constantly

You danced in a world of fantasy in your room

You sang with a voice glorious and special and it became who you were

You had great skills that no one understood even if they noticed

It was an impossible time and yet you finally got through it

Your siblings suffered as much if not more than you

I wish I could have done it better

Maybe I would not be who I am today

Perhaps that would be a loss for the one who has sustained me so long

I know it would be a loss for me and yet

What I would have given for life to have been different!